The pressure is on

Oh dear, im such a failure! Ive completely lost touch with ana ): I havent gained weight or anything but i havent been losing any either. Right now im somewhere around 141ish, i need to change that like asap! On Memorial Day im going to a pool party and  theres no way im wearing a one piece. Lets see... today is the 10th which means i have 20days to lose weight. My goal is to lose ten pounds. Thats pretty reachable but i just need to stay focused. Im going to workout atleast four times a week, cut back on eating out with friends, and limit myself to a maximum of 500calories per day. I can do this... i hope

No more rollercoaster ride

Ahh so so far ive been in this weird pattern where i gain two pounds and lose three. Its so annoying but atleast im slowly making progress. Work is killing me though, working around food all day is so tempting but i have to be strong if being thin is something i really want to achieve. Today i will eat about 320calories. And tomorrow as well so i dont gain two pounds again haha so far my lowest has been 138.8 i believe and that was yesterday. i hope tomorrow im back in that region. Ohh emm gee yesterday i read this thing were a guys lost 27 pounds eating nothing but twinkies because he'd consume only about half of his daily recommended caloric intake or whatever. Which i guess means that you can eat junk as long as you dont eat too many calories, sweeeet!

My focus needs more focus

Oh my goodness i havent blogged in ages! ive been living in binge city ever sice my last post and yesterday i weighed 145.2! I restricted a bit yesterday and so now im 144.0, i think thats pretty good for one day especially since i didnt really try too hard. I feel so big, i know thats a bad thing but im kinda glad because i hate feeling like this and that will deffinately drive me away from food.
Ive had about 200 calories today but i also walked for an hour with my dog. I noticed that i havent been going to the bathroom that often so im taking those benefiber chewable things, those babies are 30 calories a pop but on the brightside they curb my appetite pretty well. Gaaah i wanna be in the twenties already!

Ouchh !

SCRATCH.... SCRATCH..... OUCHH !

Yeapp, i accidently ripped out my left hip microdermal ): it took me forever to find the jewelry but i managed to before the whole closed and i put it back in. It hurt sooo badd but i really didnt wanna have only one piercing bahaha. But yeah im hoping for the best now, like sp it doesnt get infected or anything but i have to admit, im so scared! Aaaaah!

Besides that near hear-attack experience ahha today i didnt pretty good on my restricting. Heres what i had:

(3) slice of toast with cottage cheese.  
(1) propel water stuff
(1) Diet cherry coke
(1) single poptart

It comes out to like 410calories but i was on the elliptical in gym class and burned 50calories so it was a total of 360calories! I wanna eat the same thing tomorrow but like minus the poptart because theres 200calories in a single one! Cant wait to start shedding pounds (:

speechless

Lucy: gosh, why are you so mean ?

Co-worker: because youre a minority and youre ugly

Yeapp this actually happend today. I cant believe people can be this mean especially to me i mean im like the nicest person ever "/ but on the brightside i did manage to lose 2.2pounds. Im not even excited after what happend at work today, whatever im gonna go stuff my face now

food is evil

ughh , so yesterday i didn't go to school and i stayed home and ended up eating everything ! ): it was like i was a zombie and couldn't stop. I felt awful afterwards. im gonna try to remember that feeling next time i want to binge. the only good thing that came out of yesterday is that i went out and bought enough diet soda and vitamin water to last me until September haha. Im planning on doing a liquid fast today and probably tomorrow as well.

but yeah this morning when i got on my blog i noticed i had three followers ! thanks so much girls (((: 

whoop whoop ! today was turkey dinner day and you know who didnt have any of it ? this girl right here haha im so proud of myself because thats one of my biggest weaknesses. This morning i had a doctors appointment and it turns out i gained 2pounds ): i am now 139, fml! hopefully this liquid fast takes off at least three pounds. Tonights my friends surprise birthday party but it seems so risky because theres gonna be plenty of food but then again it is her birthday so i dont want to bail on her. uhmm, i guess i can go and stay for like an hour or so. ohh dear im gonna have to stock up mints so i dont eat anything else ha but heres some motivation for you prettty ladies. always remember to stay strong <3333

Fasting is the way to goo ! (:

I fasted all day yesterday and even found an ana buddy, woot woot ! Today i plan on fasting again which i think will be a piece of cake, yumm that sounds so good but not for me because saying no to fatty foods is like saying yes to becoming thin haha i love that quote (: but yeapp im doing pretty well. This morning i weighed in at 137.8 ! Yess, im out of the forties now i just hope i make it past the mid-30s because that always seems like mt everest lmao. Ohh well i will overcome this mountain, wish me luck !


but now heres some thinspo , enjoy !

why, hello there !

Elllo, my name is Lucy.

Spring is finally here, which means it'll soon be time to bring out the short shorts and bikinis or in other words, its time for some serious weight loss ! As of today i am a shocking 143pounds. The lowest i can weigh and still have a BMI of 18.1 is 117pounds. Thats my ultimate goal. Tomorrow i will start a 3day fast, if anyone wants to as well dont be afraid to contact me, especially since im currently looking for an ana buddy (: Hmm, blogging seems to take my mind off of food so im guessing ill probably be adding new posts on a daily basis haha