I hate feeling like I'm not in control of my own life. It frustrates me so much but at the same time I feel so depressed. I know how to get my mind off it though. I need to be become perfect again. I need to be beautiful. I need to be that girl is envied by all her friends. The one guys drool over. The one whose parents are so proud of..
I started a challenge today. Fifteen days. I'm hoping to lose 15 pounds. I will eat the same menu everyday (356 calories) and i also have a workout regime lined up. This is it. I've been so close for months and it seems like I stopped right before meeting my goal. I've gained about 5 pounds since then.. mehh. ONE FIFTEEN HERE I COME!