Friday, May 30, 2014

Is Anybody Out there?

fast forward to May 2014.. im in college now, living in my own apartment, working a shitty ass job, and going to school. i saw this movie the other day that really got me thinking.. it was the Wolf of Wall St. The movie was just so good and so inspirational because it was based on a true story. I've always wanted to study accounting (its actually what im going for now) but not because i wanted only because i thought it was a good option... four years of school, decent money. its not what i WANT to do. i don't want to be 30 working a dead end job regretting my life. If it were up to me i would model. i know, its sounds so cliche but that's been a dream of mine since i was 14. back to the movie though.. a really famous quote in the movie was "the only thing standing between you and your goal is the bullshit story you keep telling yourself as to why you cant achieve it" this is where the thinking came in.. i recently turned 19, im still young, i feel like if accounting is what im going to do then i want to at least have attempted my dreams. im not 5'8, i don't think im stunning, and i could spare to lose a few pounds but there's still a chance that when i walk into an open call i could get signed. i don't want any what-ifs, and i certainly don't want to live and ordinary life. modelling may not be my calling but then again it might be. this summer im visiting relatives in the city for two months. during that time i will go to every open call i can find. if by the end of my trip i don't hear anything then at least i'll know... 

in the meantime, i need to lose 15-20 pounds.. ive been losing weight pretty easily lately. i lost  about 10 pounds in a month with minimal effort. 20 pounds in one month with a little motivation and a lot of hard work should be breeze. i started last night, im doing a 24 hour fast followed by a three week green juice cleanse. here are my stats:


SW: 145
CW: 130

GW: 110

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