No more rollercoaster ride

Ahh so so far ive been in this weird pattern where i gain two pounds and lose three. Its so annoying but atleast im slowly making progress. Work is killing me though, working around food all day is so tempting but i have to be strong if being thin is something i really want to achieve. Today i will eat about 320calories. And tomorrow as well so i dont gain two pounds again haha so far my lowest has been 138.8 i believe and that was yesterday. i hope tomorrow im back in that region. Ohh emm gee yesterday i read this thing were a guys lost 27 pounds eating nothing but twinkies because he'd consume only about half of his daily recommended caloric intake or whatever. Which i guess means that you can eat junk as long as you dont eat too many calories, sweeeet!

So far, so good!

Yesterday i ate quite a bit, i didnt binge but i ate some rather unhealthy food. I gained point two pounds, i dont think thats really that bad but i need to get back on track.

Today i didnt go to school because i overslept and so far ive only eaten 160calories! Im planning on eating about 120 more and calling it a day. Im also hoping that that'll get me into the high 130's. I couldnt make it through today without some thinspo. Ive been watching mainly real girl thinspo on youtube and also beach thinspo. ITS AMAZING! Seriously girls, if you feel a binge coming on thats definately a great way to keep you away from food(:

Stay strong ladies, xoxo <3

My focus needs more focus

Oh my goodness i havent blogged in ages! ive been living in binge city ever sice my last post and yesterday i weighed 145.2! I restricted a bit yesterday and so now im 144.0, i think thats pretty good for one day especially since i didnt really try too hard. I feel so big, i know thats a bad thing but im kinda glad because i hate feeling like this and that will deffinately drive me away from food.
Ive had about 200 calories today but i also walked for an hour with my dog. I noticed that i havent been going to the bathroom that often so im taking those benefiber chewable things, those babies are 30 calories a pop but on the brightside they curb my appetite pretty well. Gaaah i wanna be in the twenties already!

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Yeapp so last night i ate chinese food and surprisingly i only gained .4pounds which means im 140.0pounds. Im not really mad i mean i thought i would gain more than that but im still planning to restrict today and tomorrow. Today i will eat about 400calories and tomorrow in thinking like 200 or so(: ahh mann, i havent posted any new thinspo in forever! I think ill do that when i get on my computer. I love this Blogger app, gooo Android!

Whooop whooop, back in the thirties (:

Yaaay so yesterday i only ate 360calories and i lost about two pounds! I cant wait till summer haha i wanna lose about twenty more pounds. Today i went to a chinese place and ended up eating like ten thousand calories): tomorrow and sunday i will be restricting though. Im guessing like a max of 200calories! That should get me down to 137pounds im hoping (: