The pressure is on

Oh dear, im such a failure! Ive completely lost touch with ana ): I havent gained weight or anything but i havent been losing any either. Right now im somewhere around 141ish, i need to change that like asap! On Memorial Day im going to a pool party and  theres no way im wearing a one piece. Lets see... today is the 10th which means i have 20days to lose weight. My goal is to lose ten pounds. Thats pretty reachable but i just need to stay focused. Im going to workout atleast four times a week, cut back on eating out with friends, and limit myself to a maximum of 500calories per day. I can do this... i hope

No more rollercoaster ride

Ahh so so far ive been in this weird pattern where i gain two pounds and lose three. Its so annoying but atleast im slowly making progress. Work is killing me though, working around food all day is so tempting but i have to be strong if being thin is something i really want to achieve. Today i will eat about 320calories. And tomorrow as well so i dont gain two pounds again haha so far my lowest has been 138.8 i believe and that was yesterday. i hope tomorrow im back in that region. Ohh emm gee yesterday i read this thing were a guys lost 27 pounds eating nothing but twinkies because he'd consume only about half of his daily recommended caloric intake or whatever. Which i guess means that you can eat junk as long as you dont eat too many calories, sweeeet!

My focus needs more focus

Oh my goodness i havent blogged in ages! ive been living in binge city ever sice my last post and yesterday i weighed 145.2! I restricted a bit yesterday and so now im 144.0, i think thats pretty good for one day especially since i didnt really try too hard. I feel so big, i know thats a bad thing but im kinda glad because i hate feeling like this and that will deffinately drive me away from food.
Ive had about 200 calories today but i also walked for an hour with my dog. I noticed that i havent been going to the bathroom that often so im taking those benefiber chewable things, those babies are 30 calories a pop but on the brightside they curb my appetite pretty well. Gaaah i wanna be in the twenties already!

Bloggidy, Blog Blog

Yeapp so last night i ate chinese food and surprisingly i only gained .4pounds which means im 140.0pounds. Im not really mad i mean i thought i would gain more than that but im still planning to restrict today and tomorrow. Today i will eat about 400calories and tomorrow in thinking like 200 or so(: ahh mann, i havent posted any new thinspo in forever! I think ill do that when i get on my computer. I love this Blogger app, gooo Android!

Ouchh !

SCRATCH.... SCRATCH..... OUCHH !

Yeapp, i accidently ripped out my left hip microdermal ): it took me forever to find the jewelry but i managed to before the whole closed and i put it back in. It hurt sooo badd but i really didnt wanna have only one piercing bahaha. But yeah im hoping for the best now, like sp it doesnt get infected or anything but i have to admit, im so scared! Aaaaah!

Besides that near hear-attack experience ahha today i didnt pretty good on my restricting. Heres what i had:

(3) slice of toast with cottage cheese.  
(1) propel water stuff
(1) Diet cherry coke
(1) single poptart

It comes out to like 410calories but i was on the elliptical in gym class and burned 50calories so it was a total of 360calories! I wanna eat the same thing tomorrow but like minus the poptart because theres 200calories in a single one! Cant wait to start shedding pounds (: